when it comes to disappointing God…
so you think your sin disappoints God…?
so you think your spiritual failures break His heart…?
so you think you can’t share your testimony without being a hypocrite…?
so you think the guilt you feel is from God…?
i want to share something with you that i learned earlier this week, and it may just change the way you think. it changed the way i think anyways. as i stood in the doorway of a co-worker i often have spiritual conversations with, he told me about a book he just finished reading – “52 Lies Heard In Church Every Sunday” by Steve McVey.
rather than try to explain it in my own words, i’m going to write out the conversation we had (actually, i let him do most of the talking).
me: i guess i just feel like i always let God down. like He expects more of me, but i’m just a disappointment…
him: is that what you think? you think your shortcomings, your failures, your sin is a disappointment to God…?
me: well… isn’t it though…?
him: heather, you could never disappoint God, regardless of what you do or say. because in order to disappoint God means you caught Him off guard and did something He didn’t think you would do. heather, He knows exactly what you’re going to do before it’s ever a thought in your mind! see, before you were ever born He knew ever choice you would ever make; He knew every road you would walk down; He knew it all! you absolutely cannot disappoint God!
me: but doesn’t He expect things of us…? doesn’t He expect us to try to be the best we can be…?
him: sure, He desires us to grow in grace and mirror the life of Christ, but when we fall short He doesn’t look at you and say: “you idiot! i expected more from you! I’m so disappointed in you right now!” no… He knew what the outcome of that situation would be from the beginning, so when you fall short He’s not caught off guard or surprised in any way.
me: what you’re saying makes sense… i’ve just had a whole different way of thinking about it in the past than this…
him: let me give you an example. let’s say you’re my wife and i asked you to go back to college and pursue a degree and you agreed to do it. if, halfway through the degree, you decided to quit and approached me one afternoon to tell me you dropped out of school, would i be disappointed in you? sure i would be. BUT, let’s look at it from another perspective. if i asked you to go back to college and pursue a degree and you agreed to do it, but told me there was a possibility you would never finish and graduate. if, halfway through the degree, you did indeed drop out of college, would i be disappointed in you? no i wouldn’t, because i knew ahead of time that you weren’t sure you were going to follow through with it to the end. see, God already knows the end from the beginning, so when you say you’re gonna do something (or not do something) and don’t follow through, He already knew that’s how it was going to end so He’s not surprised; and, therefore, He’s not disappointed.
me: hm. that’s simple, but yet deep at the same time…
him: just know that you could never disappoint God in any way. He knows everything about you and every choice you will ever make. He knows every thought that will run through your mind, every word that will exit your mouth, and every sin you will ever commit. and still He loves you and thinks you’re awesome. and that guilt you feel when you fall short? it’s not from the Holy Spirit… it’s from a spirit… but not the Holy one. you’re not a disappointment – never have been or ever will be in the eyes of God. your His.
i’ve been learning oceans of stuff lately, and i’m thankful for Christian co-workers who are willing to take time out of their busy schedule to help me in my (ever-struggling) Christian walk.
i’m just curious what your thoughts are on the above conversation…
do you think our sin disappoints God, or do you agree with my co-worker…?
has anyone read the book “52 Lies Heard In Church Every Sunday”…? if yes, did you recommend it?
Posted on January 13, 2012, in Christian Life and tagged Books, Disappointment, Failure, God, God's Goodness, God's Grace, God's Mercy, Shortcomings, Sin, Steve McVey. Bookmark the permalink. 11 Comments.