when i fall.
i have a question.
when a christian falls and hurts their testimony, what is your reaction to them?
“pfft. i knew this was gonna happen. it was only a matter of time…”
“admit it. you’re whole christian life prior to this was a fake.”
“i can’t believe you! i hope you get right!”
“you’re probably not even saved…”
“she doesn’t care about anyone other than herself.”
“i hope God strikes her good for this one…”
because if you’re reaction was any of those, we have a problem here.
pardon me for not being the image of perfection you conjured up in your mind. i’m not God. i’m a human.
i’m going to fall sometimes. just like King David. just like Sampson. just like Eve.
i’m going to run sometimes. just like Jonah. just like Jacob. just like Naomi.
i’m going to say the wrong thing sometimes. just like Peter. just like Saul.
i’m going to doubt sometimes. just like Moses. just like Thomas. just like John the Baptist. just like Gideon.
i’m going to do what i shouldn’t sometimes. just like Abraham. just like Lot. just like you.
because while i’m saved and have the Holy Spirit indwelling me, i still have a flesh too. and the two are warring – constantly. and i’ve always struggled with my flesh. maybe more so than other people.
and i’ve always struggled with my past. so while it may be easy for you to sit there and say “just give it to God. stop beating yourself up over it. if you’d just let go, you wouldn’t have all these problems.” — just keep in mind that i’m not you. and you’re not me. God made us completely different. i congratulate you for having a greater faith and stronger will than i do. but i’m still growing and struggling.
so when i fall, the last thing i need is another judgement passed. when i fall, it only makes it worse when people speculate that i’m a fake christian. when i fall, if people start talking about what an awful person i am – i start to believe your words. when i fall, pray. and if my words of response to you bite a little, understand. and if i hurt you, know that i’m hurting even more.
everything going on isn’t seen from the surface. there’s alot more behind the seens; beneath the waters; below the stage.
so when i fall and you judge me, just remember I Corinthians 10:12 ~
“Wherefore let him that thinketh he standeth take heed lest he fall.”