things that are different are not the same.
i know, i’ve hit on something profound with the title to this post. i’m super smart like that, i know.
by now i’m sure you’ve all figured out that i’ve changed my opinions and views on a few things since earlier this year. if the month of silence didn’t give it away, then i’m sure the last 10 posts or so have definitely clued you in.
i’ve been seriously chewing over many different issues and beliefs and i’ve been asking around and talking to people smarter and more “spiritual” than i – it’s been quite helpful and enlightening. and when i say “people smarter and more spiritual than i” i don’t mean like pastors or other IFB people – i mean, people with all sorts of various theological viewpoints and stuff.
if i get all my information from one source, pretty soon i’m going to sound like their echo, right? so in order to be educated and really knowledgable on something i need to get a glance of every perspective and go from there.
that’s what i’ve been trying to do. and (i think) it’s working. it’s helping. it’s freeing.
i no longer cringe in horror when i see a girl with 3 different colors in her hair, tattoos all up and down her arms, and 15 piercings from the neck up. i think – either she hasn’t met my Savior yet, or she’s a very liberal Christian (and i don’t mean the latter negatively).
truth is, people stand at different spots on different issues. i’m not their judge. God’s their judge… my job is to be the witness.
i haven’t been going to church on wednesday nights for about the past two months. not necessarily because i’m rebelling – but because i had school and work. my wednesday night class has since ended – yet i still have not resumed going to wednesday night services. why? because i’m tired. i’m exhausted. i’m worn-freakin’-out.
but i think Jesus understands that. even He got tired from time to time while He walked this earth in His physical body. i don’t think He faults me for choosing to skip out on driving an hour and a half to sit in an hour and a half service. it’s tough when you’re church is 45 minutes away and you have to sit in 30 minutes of traffic in addition to the normal drive. it’s exhausting – and, in case you haven’t noticed, gas isn’t exactly cheap these days. (and i’m broke. like beyondddd broke. like bank-account-$15-overdrawn broke.) i’m not having a pity party – just stating the facts, and making major adjustments in my life.
so yes, to state the obvious again: things that are different are not the same. and i am definitely different than i was 8… 6… 2 months ago. i’m not the same person i was.
and (for the most part) people are saying something along the lines of “praise Jesus!”
oh! on a positive note: i bowled a 177 yesterday at my work’s “halloweed bowling” fundraiser event. i beat all but like 2 guys that were on our 3 teams. yes, i was proud. still am actually.
and for those of you wondering: yes, i did wear a costume (ish) for the event. i was kinda required to since my boss had volunteered me to help plan it. apparently it’s a big no-no to be on the planning committee and then not participate in the event we planned. crazy.
what was my costume you ask…? i’m gonna let you guess… :]
ok… thoughts on everything BEFORE halloween bowling event ramblings?
andddd… WHO AM I…? (in the picture. i know who i am in real life.) ;P