Sometimes I cry.
You ever have one of those days where the sun is shining brightly outside, smiling faces surround you, and you can sense the presence of God… yet it feels like there’s a gray raincloud hovering over your head? You know that God loves you, you know He’s been good to you, you know that everything’s going to be okay… but there’s a quiet hurt deep within that you can’t seem to put your finger on…? That was me yesterday. That’s me today.
I feel like one storm after another keeps hitting me. And I get back up, I trust God… then another storm hits.
I want to scream out: “God, it isn’t fair! I don’t deserve this!”
And it’s then that I hear His Son answer for Him: “Fair…?”
I have nothing to complain about. God has been beyond good to me – I couldn’t count the blessings He’s given to me even if I tried. But sometimes there’s something else pulling on me… something I can’t pinpoint. Sometimes there’s a hurt that I can’t explain, there’s a sadness that has no reason. Sometimes there’s a pain in my heart. Sometimes I cry.
 Hear my cry, O God; attend unto my prayer.
 From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
 For thou hast been a shelter for me, and a strong tower from the enemy.
 I will abide in thy tabernacle for ever: I will trust in the covert of thy wings. Selah.
 For thou, O God, hast heard my vows: thou hast given me the heritage of those that fear thy name.
 Thou wilt prolong the king’s life: and his years as many generations.
 He shall abide before God for ever: O prepare mercy and truth, which may preserve him.
 So will I sing praise unto thy name for ever, that I may daily perform my vows.
~ Psalm 61
Pray for me.